C-Chan’s Corner for Thoughts

Again I neglect the blog. I found these egg things… Wonder what’ll happen. o.o;;

I’m bored. Someone talk to me!!! T_T

Born to be is an awesome song. I wonder how much longer it’ll be until Ayu retires…

This thing is AWESOME. I’m on level 7 at this second, i have it like halfway decoded or something… I’m not doing it alone though and I don’t think I could. It’s fun. :x

~<3
~C-Chan

I haven’t updated in ages. I completely forgot I HAD a blog… Hmm I don’t think anyone reads anymore, lol. Meh, past week or two have been good yet bad. Don’t feel like writing u_u|| Just take my friggen word for it, as you do for everything, right…? Right… Ahem… I’m tired. I promised I would go to sleep 10 minutes ago. Ahaha, I’ll go to sleep right now. And probably stop neglecting this blog. -.-

~<3
~C-Chan

If you say you’re gonna do something, like, do it! pls. Kinda gets me mad at peeps when they say “zomg crys, imma go do this :D” then bam. Next minute “zomg crys i’m not gonna do this :D” Hmm I’m just pissed at something… o_O

~<3
~C-Chan

I have music on my mind… I’m gonna go download some. I noticed I’m starting to drift away from english music again, and back into an obsession with j/k/c-pop. You know how that goes. >_>

And, lol, click me. Gz O_O <_<

~<3
~C-Chan

Doushite souyatte saigo no saigo made nee omoide dake o oiteku no?

Feeling emo right now… Things didn’t turn out quite as I hoped, lol… Meh, I’m used to it. ^^;

~<3 you guys. Thanks for being there.
~C-Chan

Munasawagi to tomo ni nemuri ni tsuita yofuke
Totemo kanashii yume o miteita no o oboeteru
Sono asa yokan wa chinmoku o yaburu youni
Naridashita denwa de genjitsu no mono to natta
Kokoro ni kienai kizuato o nokoshita mama
Anata wa hitori hoshi ni natta

Sayonara ne mou nidoto aenai basho e itta none
Eien no wakare no tsumetasa o uketomerarezu ni
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Atashi wa anata ni tashikani aisarete itatte
Tatta ichido de iikara

Owari naki hazu no kanashimi wa maku o tojite
Kisetsu mo kawatte samusa ga yakeni mi ni shimiru kedo
Are wa wasure mo shinai natsu no hajimari no hi de
Atashi no kawari ni kotoshi wa sora ga naki tsuzuketa
Datte amarinimo yume no tsuzuki no youde
Mada naku koto sae mo dekinai mama

Sayonara ne saigo no kotoba sae todokanai
Wakare no tsumetasa o
Iyatte hodo omoishirasareru
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Sugoshita ano hi o kuyandari shitenaindatte
Tatta ichido de iikara

Doushite souyatte saigo no saigo made nee
Omoide dake o oiteku no

Sayonara ne mou nidoto aenai basho e itta none
Eien no wakare no tsumetasa o uketomerarezu ni
Kikasete hoshikatta uso de kamawanai kara
Atashi wa anata ni tashikani aisarete itatte
Tatta ichido de iikara

Kore wa tada no yume no tsuzuki no monogatari de
Atashi wa mada me ga sametenai dake to itte

After all those emo posts, and being emo, emo emo emo, it finally happened… After wishing, hoping, dreaming, it came true… I finally found Mystik again. It was on RO… Which was the last place I thought I’d find her for some odd reason. >_> She was on her brother’s char, I guess… All I know is, when I got on qRO when PT went down for maint, everyone spammed me saying “MYSTIK IS ON, HAUL ASS TO PRONT!!!”… Well that was more from Zhen, lol, thanks… So much. We had a chance to talk. I finally expressed everything I wanted to. It took a while for me to notice that, I was nearly breaking down (in a good way). I was sooo happy… It was like… We didn’t know what to say for a while. I almost died… Started shedding tears to know that she was okay, and she was finally here. She actually said she thought I forgot about her lol… But, in any case… It was beautiful… I feel so much better now. I had been slightly upset over her because, guess what, I had another dream last night. It was almost EXACTLY like this. Kay… I think I’m done now. <_<

Haru no kaze tsutsumarete
~Haruka na yume egaite
Natsu no kumo tokirete wa kiete itta
~Aki no sora setsunakute
Fuyu no umi tsumetakute
~Muchuu ni natte iku hodo toki wa tatte ita ne

Takusan no dekigoto o
Kugurinukete kita n da
Soshite ima koko ni iru kimi no koto
Hokori ni omou itsu no hi mo
Hito tte kitto kotoba ni naranai you na
Omoide da to ka kimochi o kakae
Sou shite ikite iku n da ne

~<3
~C-Chan

So I finally sit down and realize, wow I’m not really CLOSE to anyone. I’ve never been close to someone, and I can’t ever seem to get close. Of course, I’m on the subject of most of my friends. There are actually a select few that may be classified as “close” to me, and I’m probably equally as close. They shall remain nameless unless you give me a good enough reason why you should know. So for a while I was trying to figure out why, exactly, can I not seem to get close to anyone? Is it the people I meet? Is it the people around me? Or is it, the most likely reason, me? How about this… YOU tell ME how close you want to be to me. Either to my face, email, comment whatever. I just want to gather some data to see the cause of this. Kinda driving me crazy. =D

~<3
~C-Chan

OMG SiF_l337 HAx3D US!?! #!@ HELP PLX !#!?!@ !1

I will also state wireless internet sucks. It keeps fecking dcing… Like omg… Every time I get a little too close to the antennae, IT FREAKING LOSES ASSOCIATION WITH THE ACCESS POINT. Damn, wireless stuff is retarded… Either that or it just hates me. -_-